Edwards’ Syndrome

After the last miscarriage and documented video Diaries I decided it was a time of healing and contemplation.

I had no plans to get pregnant quite the opposite, but I had a mild suspicion that I  could possibly be but it was not in ovulation but before. So it was a slim chance but as I have said sperm can survive no matter how clean you are. Once it’s in and swimming it will seek out that one egg if you are fertile and its been released and that’s exactly what happened.

Around the time of a consultant appointment I had a another confirmed pregnancy. But at the same time I found out my previous loss had a chromosome issue called Edwards’ Syndrome. A very rare condition. I’m always in the small percentage of people. I’m always in the “rare” category.

I had no idea what it was in detail just vaguely that even if my pregnancy had continued there was a chance off loss. The saddest part giving birth then loss shortly after. It made sense why the pregnancy was not forming right.

For some reason this broke me in pieces. I love all my souls however short their life’s. A heart beating or not as in this case, it still grew and over 4 weeks I waited with hope for a heartbeat. But it wasn’t meant to be. That ended at and was removed. All of this is documented in Video Diaries #1- #5.