Trisomy 14

It’s been sometime since I have updated my blog.  I had every intention but life just took a backward step and I just needed time to process my losses from the start but in particular the last two as I had answers after they were tested.

Although I felt fortunate to be in a position to have answers, the answers didn’t make any sense to me.

I started to give up hope of ever having another child again with my run of bad luck.

My last two pregnancies were both Chromosome issues and the process of conception to loss and removal just took so much time and so much out of me I closed the door to it all. Along with my June 2021 breakdown and post hormonal treatment from the pregnancies and the period after the losses, I just found it all over bearing.

I seemed to cope well I thought in the midst off it all, finding strength in helping others with my own experiences  but I suppose I was just the opposite on a deeper level.

I have been away spending a lot of time on self healing and building my business back up after Covid, but also a lot has developed that will be in my next post as a lot has changed.

My last pregnancy ending was due to Trisomy 14 a very rare Chromosome imbalance I suppose that rarely effects pregnancies and yet it appeared in mine.

What was sad about this one is the heart was beating beautifully and the shock of it stopping echoed in my screams through the whole department when they said it was over took my back to my first see post here.

My memories of the past hit me, the same scanning area where they give good news, they also give bad and I was distraught, alone, shocked and in disbelief that this was happening again.

We were tested as a couple and there were no answers as to why. I was frustrated. All I do know was that my beating heart was a girl and that I had to accept it was just one of those things.

Because of my age and history and having one birth child, there’s not a lot on offer so you are only left with hope.

I had some tests done to check my egg supply and of course it wasn’t good, but I didn’t let that phase me as I’m big on not being a text book victim.

It was pointed out that I did successfully birth a healthy child on a bad egg supply score!

I can’t tell you much about Trisomy 14, they don’t routinely test for it if you accept the screenings when pregnant, it is that rare.

I suggest if you are interested look it up. All I know is my body choose to end the life and I accepted that nature takes its own course and at least I have never had to make any choices other than what to do when my own body has decided to end it. My body seems to want to keep them in me which is why the April 2021 removal was distressing. See post here.

So that was that and from April 2021 until December 2021 I spent a lot of time on self healing and made a choice to not try anymore.

But then….